yes-i-write-fanfiction:

transformers-insanity:

 Angsty fic

‘You’ll see it again soon anyways.’ Swerve waves it off. (Y/N) laughs.

‘Humans don’t live that long. Remember? I’ll probably never see it again.’ Getting up she ran out of the room to see the meteor shower.

Never see it again? Rodimus didn’t think of that, none of the bots she was hanging out with did. It was far away. They were fine they still had time but what they didn’t realize is that they didn’t have time. That she didn’t have time. And that everything they cared about was gonna change.

Your P.O.V

A slight burning in my chest that mourning. Discomfort in the afternoon. How could I know? How could they?

 Feeling a heart tremor I reached for my chest before my heart stopped.

Rodimus was laughing as I said nothing. I couldn’t. Gasping I tried to breath as pain shot through my chest. More intense then this morning as my eyes widened in realization. My. Heart. Had. Stopped.

 I was dying.

“(Y/N)?” Rodimus asked as the world swayed around me. “(Y/N)?!” Falling to my knees my eyes started going blurry I understood what this meant. My heart… I… I was having a heart attack then everything went black.

Rodimus panicked. Picking up his unresponding human friend he transformed racing through the hallways.

“Clear!” Ratchet yelled as Rodimus watched through the door Magnus rubbing his spinal strut and Megatron holding him back. The static of his audio receptors is louder than anything else as their unresponsive. He goes numb as mechs and femmes shout around him. He can’t hear anyone. Shock. That’s what Rung eventually tells him.

Everyone as they go through their own grieving processes.

“It’s your fault!” Whirl yelled trying to jump at Rodimus. Cyclonus held him back with Ultra Magnus as Whirl screeched. “It’s your fault! If you had been faster! They could had more time! They could’ve fixed her! She would’ve had more time!” Whirl cried kicking and screaming. Ultra Magnus and Cyclonus dragged him away as he continued yelling. Rodimus just stood there.

If only he’d been faster. She would still be alive…

  Ultra Magnus was shoving his feelings down trying to bring order back to the ship immersing himself in his work.

He forgot to recharge to refuel. You always brought him energon or gently reminded him to sleep staying up and doing paperwork with him as he finally agreed it was time to sleep. He passed out in the middle of a fight and woke up crying in the medbay as he finally let it out and cried.

Megatron felt like he shouldn’t be sorry like he didn’t deserve to know or be loved by you. He gained your trust quickly and you in return earned his. He admired you but that admiration couldn’t save you…

  Drift went to his room and just started praying to Primus it wasn’t true. He talked to a you that wasn’t there and started regress into depression. He was a mess and he thought maybe you’d come back to help…

Swerve kept talking and talking questioning how this happened and very funny guys refusing to believe it was true going into deep denial talking to a you that wasn’t there.

 Ten was in the bar curled up in a ball in a corner.

Swerve let him stay there and whenever someone passed they’d pat him or try to whisper assurances because that’s what you’d do but Ten didn’t want their words he wanted yours.

Trailcutter was drunk but he knew what happened and tried getting more drunk to make the pain go away.

“Another Swerve….” Trailcutter said passing him shanix.

“Trails I don’t think that’s…”

“Another!” Swerve signs and passes him another drink but it’s so watered down with TrailCutters coolant he lets out a cry and clings to the bar crying out your name.

Rewind and Chromedome were comforting each other but were both breaking down.

“S-she’s gone…” Chromedome said nothing. He knew he’d erased past people he’d cared about but he couldn’t do that to her. He promised he wouldn’t… Taking off his visor his green optics showing as he let the coolant fall he held his conjux close.

 “She is…” He whispered. “I miss her… “ He says softly.

“Me to…” He whispered back.

Tailgate went into mass hysteria shedding coolant and screaming. Cyclonus was trying to calm Tailgate down but he was having a mental war with himself and was screaming on the inside.

Whirl was detained to the brig for violent outbursting and thinking it was some sick joke randomly punching or shooting anyone who said it wasn’t. He acted like she was still around…

A bunch of bots tried making appointments with Rung but he had locked himself in his habsuite and was shedding coolant nonstop. He couldn’t work like this. He needed help to…

 Ratchet was also in deep denial holding your body close, not sure what to believe.

He doesn’t cry as he holds you he doesn’t know what to feel. He just doesn’t want to give you up yet…

Ambulon was sad and unbelieving. Lots of paint chipped off his armour from feverish digging.

FirstAid takes off time from work and only comes back when Ratchet finally drags him back in. He needs help he doesn’t want anyone else dying. FirstAid agrees but he’s a mess.

Red Alert was taking intakes to try and calm down but his systems were glitching and shutting down from anxiety induced overload.

Perceptor refused to talk about it and immersed himself in his work.

He only stops working to talk to Brainstorm and they try and keep themselves steady and working no matter how much their sparks hurt.

Brainstorm tried making a way to bring me back he worked so hard his digits started leaking energon but he kept just working afraid to loose someone else he cared about.

Perceptor as sad and angered as he is pulls the mech away as he screams and hugs him close.

“I miss her to but Primuses sake I won’t let you join her yet!” He screams holding his friend close as Brainstorm screams. He wants her back! He wants to bring her back DAMN IT!!! Come back!

Everyone was just… really lost and… it was all your deaths fault.

It had been a month in human terms. Maybe a long time for a human but for a cybertronian. Rodimus stared out at space her voice still lingering through his processor fresh. He forgets… that she’s gone sometimes. One of the last things she said.

‘Humans don’t last long Rodimus. But it’s not the life we live it’s the memories we make.’ The image was permanently ingrained in his mind. Her cute head tilt. That large smile that covered her whole face.

Rodimus looked at his hand. Almost… almost feeling her skin against his servo. It was like she was here. Like she was still here… like she wasn’t… coolant collected in his optics.

“… I’ll miss you…” He spoke frame shaking. “I miss you…” He speaks crying.

And your voice was there sweetly. ‘I’ll always be in your spark and I’m waiting for you when you join me here.’

I’m not crying, I’m just cutting onions!

Awww fuck you man, I was in a less shitty mood and everything!